Haven't updated in a while. Feh. I try not to talk about it, but I really do get lonely pretty often up here. The last three days I've been hanging out with mine and Michael's friends without Michael as he's in Idaho. Sometimes I think I'm comfortable with them, but I noticed that I barely said anything today. And I have nothing TO say. It's almost like I don't exist but that they're just too nice to shoo me away. When it gets right down to it, we just don't have that much in common I don't think.

But honestly, I feel like no one really wants to talk to me anymore, apart from Michael. I don't know. It's not like I'm completely free of blame. And whining about it like a pathetic loser certainly isn't gaining me anything. I just had to get it out. I don't want any pity or anything, I just wish I was more sociable and interesting. I feel like such a huge bore all the time. I can never just be comfortable with myself. Michael's literally the only person I consider a best friend anymore. I hate this growing apart thing. I really do.