Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I've been optimistic way too long here. I've got many worries that have all seemed to peak this morning. I can't seem to find a job, I feel like I'm stifling my creativity by doing this major, I feel stuck, helpless, afraid, and lonely, despite having a really great boyfriend. I don't know what I want anymore but to start over. I want to start everything over.

I feel like I'm doing so many things to distract myself from the fact that I always feel like I'm not doing what I should.

2 comments:

  1. I think maybe you should start doing what you love, Patty. if a creative major will ultimately make you happy, then do it. even if it means a few more years of school... it's better then regretting what you chose to do over what you didn't for the rest of your life.

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  2. I agree, Pats. If you really feel like you're stifling your creativity by the major you're in now, then it's probably not the one for you. Just the fact that you are second-guessing probably means your heart isn't fully there. Just do what makes you happy :) You will be great at whatever you decide. I'm also a phone call away if you ever want to chat (I've been feeling the loneliness lately as well).
    Love you.

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